I took this photo on the 1st of January this year looking forwards with great optimism but by any measure this year has been a disaster, it has taken away all the anchors that hold my understanding of the world which I thought I understood and all my cultural and social references are disappearing faster that the speed of light.
I know this sounds a little dramatic but this year has seen my teenage years wiped out in a several devastating strokes. What makes it even more cruel is reading about it without any notice on twitter which has often taken my breath away for a moment.
I know that becoming old is the natural way of things but never in my wildest dreams in my twenties did I think that it would be this traumatic. Everything I thought I knew and understood has now flown out of the window and I am now in free fall.
Now the old Hippie in me thinks that this is a cool concept but the reality is far more scary. I am trying to second guess my place in the universe and it is almost impossible to predict. Now I know I am a control freak but I now feel like an old telephone switchboard operator when someone has taken out all the cables. (at this point I know I have lost at least half of my readership).
So this Christmas I am going to go with the flow as Lady Ann says and see where it takes me. Half of me is hoping that it takes me to somewhere safe and the other half is hoping it will take me to somewhere that I have never been and is ever so slightly exciting.
So guys whatever your Christmas brings you I hope you are surrounded by your loved ones and you find what you are looking for because I can only think that 2017 is going to be a bit of a roller coaster ride.
All that remains for me to say is I hope you have a Merry Christmas, a happy and healthy New Year. But on a personal note please be kind to each other, it’s the only way we get through the tough bits.